How I came across tumblr and how it’s changed my life.
I came across tumblr one day in my news feed on facebook. One of my friends was publishing things daily about her life and I though to myself, “that would be cool to do”. So here I am, doing just that. My life has change A LOT since I got a tumblr but, none of that change is due to tumblr. I think I enjoy tumblr, not that I use it to vent or release things, I just enjoy it.
My favorite season would have to be fall. I love how the leaves change colors and look so beautiful. I love how the weather changes from hot to gloomy. I love wearing layers of clothing. I love cuddling. I love hot tea. I love pumpkin pie. I love the occasional rain. I love wearing scarfs. I also love Thanksgiving. I just love fall.
Amybaby has been in my life longer than I can even remember… I have pictures of us in kindergarden on the playground together. We’ve grown up together, and I am so lucky that we are still closer than ever. I wouldn’t be the person I am today if it wasn’t for her. She has taught me so much about perseverance, love, and true companionship. (Not to mention she’s almost as weird as I am) No matter what I am going through, she is always there. I hate the fact that she lives in Newport because I hardly have time to drive out there. She is honestly my sister and I love her to death.
K-dawg and I met in freshmen pe, even though she always forgets that. We pretty much instantly hit it off and have been best friends ever since. We fight but that’s what close friends do. We call each other out on our shit and give advice when needed. It’s a pretty strange relationship from the outside view when I think about it… We’re weird but I think that’s what makes it work so well. She’s pretty much my rock whenever I don’t know what to do or what I’m feeling. I love her soo much and my life would not be as amazing as it is now without her in it! 3BM
J-bamf is a special one. We honestly didn’t become close until last year (because I was so intimidated by her) but I am really glad that we’re friends. She’s not afraid to tell me the truth and she always has my back. Somehow, we manage to do the strangest things and have a ton of fun. Her family has pretty much adopted me this year because I’m ALWAYS with her. We’re kind of like a packaged deal. She knows when to go crazy and have a great time, but also when to tone it down and talk about life. I just love her! 3BM
Demitrius doesn’t take any shit from anyone. He tells everything like it is, no matter how it makes you feel. That might seem bad but honestly, he just tells the truth, and I really admire that. He is always there when I need to talk or need someone to go to lunch with. Also, he reminds me that I am a girl and that I need to look like one. We get wild and crazy and I love it. He makes me happy when I’m sad. Gosh! I can’t wait until he lives with me!
There are also a lot of people that I know would come to my rescue if I ever needed them. I love those people with my whole heart.
I am so thankful to have such beautiful people in my life.
Hmm, this one is kind of tough. I don’t watch much tv anymore, I’m always out doing something. If I had to pick one as of right now… Grey’s Anatomy would probably be my choice! I like a lot of other shows like Whale Wars but, the new season’s haven’t started yet. Sigh.
“I know when a man is on fire, he’ll swear anything. But when a heart’s on fire, it gives out more light than heat, and the fire will be out even before he’s done making his promises. Don’t mistake that for true love.”—Hamlet
I currently have 6 piercings and no tattoos. All of my piercings are on my ear lobes, but that will be changing soon… I hope. I already had both my nose and cartilage pierced but my parents made me take them out. I really want to get both redone before my birthday! I think once I get those, I’ll be done with piercings. For my 18th birthday, I’m getting the first of my two tattoos. It’s going to be a treble cleft behind my left ear, which is kind of ironic because I’m hard of hearing on that side. Then, eventually I will get either “esto perpetua” or “warm sunsets smothered with sun, were our hearts just harvesting love?” I just haven’t decided which one yet.
Soooooooo yeah. That’s about it.
OH, I’ve always wanted to tattoo a mustache onto my finger…. but I probably never will.
soooo i really want to go on a date with you but i'm wayy too nervous you're just too pretty. someone told me you really like john mayer so hopefully i could take you to a concert sometime? or maybe coldplay?
soo I think you should just ask me! because odds are, you’re cuter than I am. and yes, i really really like john mayer and coldplay. if you took me, i would probably cry & love you forever. (:
I kind of like my middle name. Although I used to wish I had something “prettier”, I guess I’m happy with it now. I can’t really imagine my name any other way. Okay, that sounded really lame, but it’s true. A coool fact about my middle name is that it’s spelled the Irish way and it’s also my little sister’s first name.
Tonight was all about the fight against breast cancer. I know I wouldn’t be who I am today, if it wasn’t for Denise TenBosch. She has been so strong in her fight and I love her so much. All my pink was for her <3 Stay strong.
I have to get up at the crack of dawn to take my friend to a train station… Why am I so nice? I’m beyond tired, but at least I got my homework done. On a sad note…. Goodbye Jersey Shore, until next season!
Gahhh, I haven’t been able to stop smiling all day, what’s wrong with me?!?!
I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it. I want to be over it.
I have every reason in the world to move on.. but I can’t.
This weeekend was CUHrazy.. but I loved it. The football game, the cops, the random sleepovers, all the laughing, honey bunches of oats, tacos, homecoming, otterpops, just everything. I feel like all the shit has been cleared up, I feel like everything is back to normal, I feel like I have my old friends back, I feel like I am so much better all by myself, I feel freeee, I feel good.
Today was definitely a rollercoaster,k even the weather couldn’t decide what it wanted. I woke up and forgot that I wasn’t at my house… which is always a weird feeling. I did some errands and ended up at school (as soon as I was there, I regreted my decision). The day dragged on with too many emotional ups and downs. Finally, it ended on a good note. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I did before everything… before that party, before the lies, before the fights, before the changes. I liked it. I loved it. I remembered why I used to feel so happy and liberated. I cannot wait for it to happen again.
P.S. I’m starting to love my new life.
P.P.S. Tonight is the first night that I sleep alone in probably more than a month.
I’m super conflicted about what to do this Saturday. I have tickets to go see The National… but I just don’t know. I have nobody to go with. Honestly, I’m not sure if I want to put myself through a concert of lyrics and lines that bring back the burned past.
I’m in such a terrible mood and my mom is definitely NOT helping. I can already tell that this is not going to be a great week. I just want to blast my music and lay in my bed… but I know better.
This weekend was way better than I thought it would be. San Diego was exactly what I needed. I spent quality time with people that I love and it made me realize, I’m in a good place… I’m happy. Whatever is going on right now within my mind is good, so I’m just going to ride this roller coaster and enjoy every second of it.
Oh & I met a boy who gave me butterflies, how strange.
Leaving soon for a night in San Diego with my best friend, to have some fun after yesterday’s news. People are asking me about it and all I can say is ‘can we please not talk about that?’ This song is for you. You know who you are. I don’t care if you never read this, I don’t care if you never listen to this song, I don’t care if you never speak to me again, I don’t care about your new girlfriend, I don’t care about your new life. I really don’t care about your stupid shit anymore. I don’t want anything to do with who you have become. I’ll move on too. It will take me more than two weeks though, guarantee that. You know why? I really did love you.
Just got back from Hermosa Beach and made myself a big bowl of oatmeal &raisins. I sang at a cafe called Planet Earth with my friend Josh, it was pretty cool. I’m really excited to go back and do it again (and hopefully get some organic pie). Ah, I’m tired.
Wow. That’s honestly all I can say about tonight. Driving through La in the rain was great enough on its own but, seeing Angus and Julia Stone was more than I could have imagined. Their voices were so perfect, so clear, so beautiful. I can still hear them ringing in my mind. The amazing Damien Rice showed up mid concert for a duet with Julia and let me just say.. he is so great live. Both of them are. (After the concert Carly and I were able to meet and shake hands with him, as well as, Angus!) Everything about their concert was so captivating. I couldn’t help but fall in love with Angus’ awkward stage presence and Julia’s bright skirt. The stage lighting was so perfect and the crowd was so small. It was absolutely perfect, there are just no other words to describe it. Unfortunately, I did have a panic attack when the song For You came on.. I just instantly thought oh I should call….. but that’s clearly not possible. Angus said at one point, “If you love somebody, make sure you let them know.” Although he didn’t say much, what he did say was really touching and sweet (plus his eyes are gorgeous). Ah, tonight was better than I dreamed it would be. I really should be in bed because I have school at the crack of dawn tomorrow…. but I am just tooo excited about everything. It’s a great day to be alive. I am so blessed.