I just wrote a long paragraph and deleted it all. I’m dwelling. I need to stop dwelling. I need to stop worrying. I need to stop stressing. I need to stop being afraid. I need to live for me. I need to do what makes me happy and not worry about what the future holds. Fuck. I don’t understand why I feel this way, but I do. I guess I just have to ride it out. This world keeps turning and there’s nothing I can do to slow it down. (Thank you Brett Dennen) I need to realize that.
"When I’m able to walk, I’m queen of my world."
I read a book while I was on the cruise, and there was one part that really struck me. A girl had everything she could want, yet she said she was scared. When asked why, she replied with something along the lines of, “whenever you are really happy and satisfied, that’s when something is about to be taken away from you” I think this stressed me out (because that’s how I feel). It was a wonderful book though. I also read another book about elephants. All together, I read about 1000 pages in one week. What a nerd. My face burns. I feel like I’m getting sick… Not good.
However, I have lots of reasons to be happy. I have something great and it’s brighter than sunshine. So let the rain fall, I don’t care.
I wish I could post music right now…… but this is tumblr mobile. Ifff I could, it would be bat fo lashes.
I got a piercing using someone elses ID last night?(ts so sleepytime. Tooo bad I just had CHA4T. NEwayz,
Hmmhhmmhmm. I’m tired and I should be asleeeep… I wish I was at the Harry Potter premiere right now. The tickets I was waiting for aren’t even on sale until tomorrow morning. FML. I had a really nice night. I’ve had a nice week. I’m going to have a great couple weeks coming up. Mexico, Passion Pit, musical auditions, and much much more. AH I CAN’T WAIT FOR MEXICO! Everyone here is going to be partying it up, but I’m excited to relax and have a margarita on yhe beach. This is so strange.. I wake up in the morning and I’m happy happy happy. No panic attacks, no stresss, no chest pains, just enjoying the moments that count. I am blessed and I am content. I guess I’ll go to sleep now, I have class early in the morning… but then I have to hurrrrry home and buy those dang tickets!
GAGA OO LALA. I listened to her way before she became a KIIS hit. I bought her first album soo long ago; it was genius. I found it the other day and it’s scratched beyond belief… so I might have to redownload it. Her new stuff isn’t as great, well at least in my opinion.
Last movie I saw in theaters.
The Town! It was really really good. I saw it while on a date, which made it even better.
Last book I read (for leisure or school).
For school, I read Hamlet-I understood it but I didn’t enjoy it. For leisure, I read It’s Kind Of A Funny Story-possibly one of my favorites. This reminds me: I NEED TO GO BOOK SHOPPING!
I found this band on a the back of a card, in one of my favorite thrift stores over summer. “Oh, how you break my heart.” I like them. Thinking about it, summer was so shitty. I can’t wait for next summer… I’m not going to waste my time, I’m going to do everything I want to do. I’m supposed to be in San Fransisco right now. Fml. Alaskan dog sledding has been added to my bucket list. I’m watching “I was bitten” and it’s kind of freaky… Just so you know, stiletto snakes do not have an anti venom, don’t play with them. Snakes scare me, but not as much as wolves do. I can’t believe it’s already 2:32. I’m thirsty but I don’t want to get up, my couch feels too nice. I hate being alone. Today sucks so far.. hopefully it will get better.
you keep posting photos of exotic and/or adorable animals. do you have a favorite?
I really really like tigers. That’s probably because I really like cats. I think they’re so beautiful.. even though they could definitely kill me. Did you know that their skin is stripped not just their fur? I think that’s pretty cool too.
Oh yes we are still friends. Very PC answer, by the way.
I've never understood the appeal of that show. Maybe I'm too bitter and jaded about high school.
Do you have any guilty pleasures?
I watch Criminal Minds and listen to lots of 80s music.
Well, I must say I was nervous that you were a die hard fan. I enjoy our internet friendship. That’s lame, I’m more of a Mac person myself.
My guilty pleasures would have to be Grey’s Anatomy and Cha honey milk tea.
i wouldn't call myself a guru, just very descriptive and very pretentious. http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.com/2008/01/30/40-indie-music/
alex, this next question will make or break our potential (internetz) friendship: how do you feel about glee?
Hahah that article was pretty much spot on. White kids, myself included, are so pathetic. I occasionally watch it with my mom or my friends but, I really don’t think it deserves all of the hype that it gets. The new season is way worse than the first because they completely converted to pop music to gain more fans. Are we still internet friends?
most of the people who track me on the internet have some degree of interest in my life and/or my friends' lives. i figure i might as well return said interest. plus, you seem like an interesting person and although we are conversing online, i know for sure that you're not a mass murder or overweight middleaged man living in his mom's house (craigslist).
This is true, I was/still am interested in your life. I had heard you were somewhat of a music guru and was jealous (plus a few other personal reasons). I must say I’m glad that I don’t seem like a dull person and I’m also glad that you know I’m not a mass murder or a middle aged man.
uc berkeley is the dream, but i also applied for guaranteed transfer to santa barbara and santa cruz (still waiting for ucsc). stoners on beach cruisers--yeah, i'm okay with that. i plan on moving to the bay within the next five years, though, regardless of college. (i love and hate orange county at the same time.)
random question: what is your favorite food and why?
uc berkley is beautiful, I’ve been there a couple times and I know some people who go there. Also, my dad grew up in Santa Cruz, I looove it there. You seem to have everything totally planned out. I’m jealous, as of right now I’m completely lost when it comes to my future..
That’s a tough question to answer.. I would probably have to say pizza, even though it makes me sick and it’s really bad for me. I don’t know why, I just love it.
ivc, actually. i've been taking classes since the summer after freshman year and i have enough units to technically be a sophomore now. it's a hell of a lot cheaper than any other school system.
you should visit university campuses; that'll open your eyes to where you want to be and help motivate you to NOT be stuck at occ for five years.
are you applying anywhere else, though?
Yeah, that’s what I’ve heard.. and I definitely need cheaper education. Money is just not my friend. I’ve been to a couple campuses and would LOVE to get out of here. I just can’t, at least for awhile. I was thinking about applying to private christian colleges or schools that focus on music but then I changed my mind. It didn’t seem right to me. Do you plan on transferring out? If soo where to?
oh, please. music can happen for anyone at any age. james mercer of the shins is someone's dad. james murphy from lcd soundsystem? aging hipster! if you're good at what you love, you'll find a niche for yourself.
do you know where you want to go school?
I guess I’m just trying to find my place then. It’s a work in progress.
Actually, I have no idea. I’m going to community college to take general ed and work as much as possible to save money for the big leagues. My counselor says “it will be easier to pick what you want to do after some hands on classes” but I’m not so sure about that one. Where do you go to school?