ALEXXANDRUH

Saturday schoool why are you so cruel?

I can hear my neighbors having sex through these paper thin walls.

If I open my window, I hear nothing but the above ^ and a horror movie playing in the house across the garages. Even better.

I am too hott in my stuffy room, but I would rather be in (relative) silence.

Why not listen to music you say? My ipod was stolen and I have no other way of drowning out unpleasant noises. So (relative) silence it is.

I thought about going to get one of my tattoos today, but realized I left a majority of my money at home.

I spent a lot of time with my sister today, which is becoming a rare occurance. It’s now on my list of things I need to change in my life.

I cried really hard today. It was surprising. Stick and stones may break my bones, but words make me want a new life.

I think my new combination of medicines is fucking with my mind.

I am emotionless and incapable of sleep.

The neighbors just turned their movie up louder. Oh joy.

I heard what you said about me. Yeah, you. YOU’RE A FUCKING DOUCHE BAG. Not to mention a liar; you didn’t mean everything you said, did you? Oh well, lesson learned.

I FUCKING HATE BEING SICK. I feel so drained and exhausted. I’ve only been able to make it from my bed to the couch because I’m just so week. I haven’t eaten a whole meal in three days… I gotta say I’m pretty hungry, but nothing will stay down. I hate how this makes me feel.. It reminds me of the years past and I would rather not revisit those times. Being trapped inside makes me depressed and anxious. Gahhh I want to be better, I want to be healed. If only, if only….